After my grandfather died

My father's father had Alzheimer's. After he died in 1984 I wrote this:

Barney

Barney sits at the funeral home
fingers in mouth
mouth in fourth
mind in neutral
it's a big story
he's trying to tell
bigger than me
bigger than him
-oops!!!
messed himself          again.....
"Does he miss Marge?"
"Does Marge miss him?"
ha.
ha.
1984 and the people are
"indisposed"
"passed away"
"gone to meet their maker"
Where fucking were we?